Stuck.
Well yes, promises are meant to be broken. One party will be hurt in any way. Let that person be me. I don't want to live in any dreams anymore. I am awake, truly awaken to what's happening around me now. I bet she is crying right now. She really needs you. I don't want to see you struggle anymore. I know C is back and you're in pain now. I'm really sorry. Sorry for making so hurtful and making things so difficult for you. I've got my retribution already. What comes around goes around. Why does things always have to turn out this way. Making me have no one to turn to. I've got to stop what I'm doing. I do not belong to anyone now. I'm independent and I can also live without you. (Or am I just lying to myself)?
I am not going to make things difficult for you anymore. I know you change the question just now. Cos I didn't just get to know you. I admit, I will be sad for a long period of time, but trust me, I will be fine. I will really be fine. She's not fine, and she won't be. I gave you up that time, so I don't ask for anything more. Maybe that period of time when you were sweet to me, its already enough, more than what I can ask for. I demanded too much, and nothing good will come out of it. If things go screwing like that, I can really go mad. I don't wish for anything anymore. I bet I will concentrate on my studies in order to numb myself. I will, I must be strong. No one can help me overcome this except for myself. I'll learn to take things easy, I know it'll not be easy for all of us. But I'll be the one to take that first move.
I need time, thats all I need. I knew that when I stepped in to this, nothing good will happen. Yes, and time had proven to me that I'm correct. I succumb to all my mistakes. The usual line that you used to say I'll always be there if you need me and you always call me retarded will make me remember, all your funny actions and your laughter will stay in my heart, always. Your morning messages and midnight calls will be badly missed. It was my mistake from the start and I really admit and I've got nothing to say. Just want to tell you, I'm sorry. And I'm sure of it that it'll never different after tonight. I still trust you, even though you may hurt me. I won't mind either. I won't.
(4143), I really do.
I am not going to make things difficult for you anymore. I know you change the question just now. Cos I didn't just get to know you. I admit, I will be sad for a long period of time, but trust me, I will be fine. I will really be fine. She's not fine, and she won't be. I gave you up that time, so I don't ask for anything more. Maybe that period of time when you were sweet to me, its already enough, more than what I can ask for. I demanded too much, and nothing good will come out of it. If things go screwing like that, I can really go mad. I don't wish for anything anymore. I bet I will concentrate on my studies in order to numb myself. I will, I must be strong. No one can help me overcome this except for myself. I'll learn to take things easy, I know it'll not be easy for all of us. But I'll be the one to take that first move.
I need time, thats all I need. I knew that when I stepped in to this, nothing good will happen. Yes, and time had proven to me that I'm correct. I succumb to all my mistakes. The usual line that you used to say I'll always be there if you need me and you always call me retarded will make me remember, all your funny actions and your laughter will stay in my heart, always. Your morning messages and midnight calls will be badly missed. It was my mistake from the start and I really admit and I've got nothing to say. Just want to tell you, I'm sorry. And I'm sure of it that it'll never different after tonight. I still trust you, even though you may hurt me. I won't mind either. I won't.
(4143), I really do.
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